A bigger calling

9/20/08

Have you ever felt like now is the time to make a choice of which direction you are going to take? You have the choice to go towards the right path, the one that is tougher yet more fulfilling, or the other more traveled and easier road. When i was younger I had a prophecy told to me about my life. They stated that I was like a flower, that with nurturing and perseverance I would become a bright light for Christ. Though it is rather generic, it makes sense to me now. I look back on my life and realize the numerous opportunities presented to be more, all by pursuing God and His righteous path. What's that mean in the real world to me...well right now I am really struggling with entertainment I allow myself to be exposed to. I have obviously edited my choices when my kids are around, but I started thinking if it is not right when the kids are present, then what makes it OK for me when I'm with other adults?

A problem for me in this pursuit is that many of the adults I surround myself with do not have the same passion that I do to purify their lives, so my actions seem hypocritical and I gain little support when I'm weak. Luckily Ryan has been on board so far in not watching the things that offend my sense of purity, though I'm still seeking what those boundaries are. I pray that the Spirit gives me wisdom and discernment when I have areas of question.

That issue aside, I feel God pulling me in His direction. Asking me to start purifying myself. For what I obviously don't know, maybe just to have a deeper relationship with Him. I just want a real and fulfilling relationship with Jesus.