In the Lap of God

April 25, 2002

I crawl into the lap of God. I press my head up against His chest. He wraps His arms around me tightly, just enough to feel His security. I weep for my fears and hurts are chasing me. My eyes are foggy and discernment is hard. So i cling closer to Him, and beg that He never lets me go. But He loves me so much that He desires the best, so He slowly lets me down. He brushes off the dirt and grime from my falls. He cleans me up and brings me new clothes, for my others were badly tattered and torn. He places His hand on my shoulder, as to reassure me of His love.


He then embraces me, and I wish it would never end for the comfort I receive is indescribable. He turns me around facing the opposite direction. My fears approach me as if ready to pounce.
I start to turn back to face Him, but He gently grabs my shoulders and plants me back again.

He whispers in my ear, "I have always loved you, and I always will. I desire the utmost for your life. However, that doesn't mean that I won't let you fall. It just means that I will always be there to pick you back up. I will lead you by ways you have not known, along unfamiliar paths, I will guide. I will turn the darkness into light before you and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do, I will never forsake or leave you."

These words reassure me, and I slowly start making steps down a path placed before me. As time goes on I sometimes skip down the path, whereas other times I crawl. Either way I always hear a voice say, "wherever you turn to the right or the left, yours ears will hear a voice behind you saying, this is the way, walk in it."

My prayer:
God you have been so faithful to me. Gently lifted me up when I fell. You picked me up and placed me on your lap. And you sang to me, sang to me. I wept and cried, the pain almost unbearable. But every now and then I would hear that song of peace, hope and love and know you were near. Thank you God for being faithful!