The craving for silence. You never realize how important quiet time can be until you are no longer getting it. It's no wonder that God calls us to "Be still and Know." Because in the silence there is clarity, there is renewal, there is rest.
In my recent times of silence I reflect on the blessings in my life. I could have turned down a completely different path. Luckily God intervened and provided me the path to walk on. In Proverbs it says that IN his heart a man determines his course, but the Lord determines his steps. How true that has been in my life. I knew my direction, and I knew my passions, but never figured out how to live them out. I thought I knew what type of man I wanted to marry, and it turns out the one that i thought didn't fit my "so called list" actually fits me better than any other person in the world. I thought that I wanted kids later, but now I have two and they are my greatest joys.
All these things God led me to, but the problem is how i got there was really tough. And though i do not want to change my life as of present, I wish that my story was a little different in how i got here. God allowed me to choose how i got here, but if this was always going to be the end result could I have done it in a different way or seen a different course to take? I guess I'm just wondering will I be able to discern God's will without taking the wrong path to get there?
Then that goes back to how can we determine God's will? I guess I will continue to work on that question.
